Kind of odd

So. I've been married for 11 years tomorrow. I've also been separated for pretty much 3 years. The decree nisi comes through the day after tomorrow. Even though none of this was my idea I should probably be over it. I shouldn't be dreading tomorrow. I definitely should not have been in a bad mood for weeks. Except I've been all of those. I'm in a foul mood. I try to rectify it. Ignore it. It's still there. I'm only posting this because generally there's blogs about divorce, getting over it, etc, but what happens if 3 years in its all still horrific. Maybe it's just me. I doubt it. I wonder how we can all help each other. Not just by talking,